Dustin Diamond, best known for role as Saved by the Bell's "Screech," doesn't understand why he has such a bad reputation.
Like why fans believe he's actually the aggressive guy they saw on reality show Celebrity Fit Club. ("It was scripted on my end," the 37-year-old tells TIME. "I had to outdo Gary Busey! I didn't think the fans would think of everything being real.")
Or why they were turned off by his self-released and allegedly staged adult film, pleasantly titled Screeched — Saved by the Smell. ("Paris Hilton made $14 million for her sex tape . . . As an opportunist, I thought I could easily fake it and get a stunt double," he said. "But people just ran with it. Everyone has a sex tape, but I was making porn. And I wasn't, it wasn't me. My conscience is clear.")
And then there was his book, Behind the Bell, that claimed to provide salacious details about cast hookups and drug abuse that even Diamond now admits were embellished. ("They gave me a ghostwriter who just talked to me for a few hours here and there on the phone" and then came up with a false, final manuscript he was "powerless" to change, although he did pose for the cover, Diamond says. While he didn't say what the book got wrong about other cast members' stories, he said that he never called anyone a douche-nozzle or had a sexual relationship with NBC Vice President of Children's Programming, Lisa Mancuso, who died of cancer years before the book's publication.)
But now, Diamond is ready for redemption, which he hopes will come in the form of the upcoming and unauthorized Lifetime biopic based on Behind the Bell, premiering Monday. Diamond says the film isn't based on the "nasty and negative" lies told by his ghostwriter, but on Diamond's own clarifications. Viewers will be "surprised" by the film, Diamond says. And apparently Diamond will be, too — because in spite of his Executive Producer title, Diamond admits that he hasn't "actually read the script or seen the final product." Or been on set, for that matter.
When informed that the teaser shows Diamond's character punching someone in the face while shouting "I'm not Screech!," he was surprised, because that incident, he says, never happened.
"No one who is writing this was there," says Diamond, revealing his first signs of concerns over the film, to which he signed on in a hands-off capacity. "I didn't talk to [the writers] really, so how did they research? I'm going to watch with very nervous hopes . . . if they butcher it and get it completely wrong, I'm just going to film a documentary of just me talking about the errors."
All this uncertainty might be why Mark-Paul Gosselaar (Bell's Zack), Dennis Haskins (Mr. Belding), and Elizabeth Berkley (Jessie) have all exhibited disappointment in Diamond and complete disinterest in watching a dramatized version of what they remember as a positive experience. A spokesperson for Mario Lopez (A.C. Slater) responded to an email request for comment with a brusque single-word punctuated response of, "Nope." Lark Voohries (Lisa), meanwhile, tells TIME that she will be watching because the movie's release "was flattering all around, you know, that the excitement lives on."
While Diamond and Voohries have kept in touch and worked together on independent film projects, Diamond says he hasn't heard from the rest of the cast since he was 16, which was more than 20 years ago. Diamond was only 11 when filming of Saved by the Bell began, which socially isolated him from his mostly 14-year-old cast-mates.
"Some of [the cast] would go out to a bar or a restaurant, and I wasn’t invited," Diamond says. "And at that age it hurts. And it was like, what am I? I haven’t earned my place?"
Diamond, however, says there are no hard feelings. "No one holds on to a grudge over two decades." But, depending on the backlash from the Lifetime film, Diamond said that "maybe reaching out to the cast members after all this time would be a good thing."