--- title: 'I Was Almost a School Shooter': Aaron Stark Explains description: Colorado man, Aaron Stark, explains what he thinks could be done to prevent school shootings, including mental health, love and gun control. canonical: https://time.com/5167365/i-was-almost-a-school-shooter-man-pens-heartfelt-letter-about-mental-health-and-guns/ author: Sarah Gray article:opinion: false article:content_tier: free article:published_time: 2018-02-20T23:55:49.000Z article:modified_time: 2026-10-12T08:59:32.473Z article:section: Health og:title: 'I Was Almost a School Shooter': Man Pens Heartfelt Letter og:description: "It's a multifaceted issue." og:url: https://time.com/5167365/i-was-almost-a-school-shooter-man-pens-heartfelt-letter-about-mental-health-and-guns/ og:site_name: TIME og:image: https://static.time.com/v3/assets/bltea6093859af6183b/blt8b9e1e5643aee7e8/69892838cf40a8e979c4b65c/gettyimages-919613652.jpg?branch=production&width=1200&quality=75&auto=webp&crop=16:9 og:image:width: 3000 og:image:height: 1688 og:image:alt: Protestors Rally For Gun Control At Broward Courthouse After FL School Shooting og:type: article twitter:card: summary_large_image twitter:title: 'I Was Almost a School Shooter': Man Pens Heartfelt Letter twitter:description: "It's a multifaceted issue." twitter:image: https://static.time.com/v3/assets/bltea6093859af6183b/blt8b9e1e5643aee7e8/69892838cf40a8e979c4b65c/gettyimages-919613652.jpg?branch=production&width=1200&quality=75&auto=webp&crop=16:9 ---  # 'I Was Almost a School Shooter.' 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A rally held on Saturday, days after a deadly school shooting in Parkland, Fla., drew a crowd of thousands and prompted impassioned pleas for gun control._ by [Sarah Gray](https://time.com/author/sarah-gray/) ## Sarah Gray Feb 20, 2018 11:55 PM UTC by [Sarah Gray](https://time.com/author/sarah-gray/) ## Sarah Gray Feb 20, 2018 11:55 PM UTC “I was almost a school shooter,” Aaron Stark wrote in a letter to Denver’s local station [9 News](http://www.9news.com/article/news/local/next/i-was-almost-a-school-shooter/73-520738916). “I am not a school shooter because I didn’t have access to guns.” The letter, which was printed in full by the station’s show [_Next with Kyle Clark_](https://www.facebook.com/Nexton9NEWS/), goes on to discuss Stark’s violent childhood, his struggles with mental health, access to guns, love and why he eventually did not end up committing violence in 1996. Last Wednesday, a 19-year-old man allegedly shot and killed 17 people at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School in Parkland, Florida. Stark says he wrote the letter because his wife and daughter said they couldn’t understand why the alleged shooter lashed out like he did. “Sadly, I can,” Stark wrote. “This is a hard conversation to have, but we must have it.” On Tuesday, Stark took his message to national television, where he explained in an emotional interview to [MSNBC’s Katy Tur](http://www.msnbc.com/msnbc/watch/colorado-man-aaron-stark-says-he-could-have-been-school-shooter-in-1996-1165795395874) why he wrote the letter and what he thinks can be done to stop school shootings. “I think we really need to have a hard look at the effect that guns have,” Stark said. “Do we really need to have assault weapons? Do we really need to have people being able to go buy an AR-15 when they’re not able to even buy a pistol because they won’t pass the background checks?” “But the thing about my post was, it’s more than just guns,” Stark continued. “It’s a multifaceted issue. And if you focus on just the guns, then you’ll ignore the rest — but if you focus on just the mental health, then you’ll have missed the gun part.” Stark believes society should focus on love and reaching out to kids who feel like they have nothing to lose, like he felt back in 1996\. While he was a teen, Stark says he was alternately homicidal and suicidal. And in addition to the assault weapons ban (which was in place from 1994 to 2004) several acts of kindness stopped him from committing violent acts. In one such instance, Stark says he was was planning on killing himself when a friend, who baked him a pie and threw him a gathering, saved his life. “I wasn’t going to survive that night if that hadn’t happened,” Stark told Tur. “People reach out and sometimes they don’t even know the effect they’re going to have. A kind word, a hug, saying ‘Hey how are you, do you want to come have food with me? Come watch a movie?’ could literally save someone’s life.” Stark’s full letter is posted below: --- > “” --- ## Transcript If the President wants to come up to me and tell me to my face that it was a terrible tragedy and how it should never have happened and maintain telling us how nothing is going to be done about it, I'm gonna happily ask him how much money he received from the National Rifle Association. [ APPLAUSE ] Since he was in middle school, it was no surprise to anyone who knew him to hear that he was the shooter. Those talking about how we should not have ostracized him, you didn't know this kid. Okay, we did. We know that they are claiming That there are mental health issues. And I am not a psychologist, but we need to pay attention to the fact that this isn't just a mental health issue. He wouldn't have harmed that many students with a knife. [ APPLAUSE ] [ APPLAUSE ] A childhood is gone because that man. That man, despite being diagnosed with autism, ADHD, despite being evaluated and not even committed by a mental health facility, despite being tipped off to the FBI multiple times, was able to legally purchase an AR- 15. Because of these gun laws, people that I know, people that I love [ INAUDIBLE ] died and I will never be able to see them again. There are people from both sides who are saying, enough of these guns and it's not about that anymore. This is about creating a badge of shame to put on anybody who has accepted money from the NRA. This isn't just about sending thoughts and prayers anymore as much as those help. This is about changing them, thank you. [ APPLAUSE ] ```json [{"@context":"https://schema.org","@type":"NewsArticle","@id":"https://time.com/5167365/i-was-almost-a-school-shooter-man-pens-heartfelt-letter-about-mental-health-and-guns/","mainEntityOfPage":{"@type":"WebPage","@id":"https://time.com/5167365/i-was-almost-a-school-shooter-man-pens-heartfelt-letter-about-mental-health-and-guns/"},"headline":"'I Was Almost a School Shooter.' 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