Matt LeBlanc Says He Almost Had a Nervous Breakdown After Friends

Things haven’t always been so cheery for Friends star Matt LeBlanc. In fact, the actor said that there was a period in his life, “for years and years,” where he “barely left the house” and came close to a breakdown.

“I was burnt out,” he told the Mirror, in advance of his debut as the new host of Top Gear. “I wanted to not have a schedule, not be somewhere. I was in a position to do that. My agent was bummed. Most actors call their agents and say, ‘What’s going on?’. I’d call mine and say, ‘Please lose my number for a few years.’

“It was a very dark time. I almost had a nervous breakdown.”

LeBlanc, 48, described retreating to his California cattle ranch following the end of his sitcom spin-off, Joey, in 2006, and cutting his hair into a Mohawk to further discourage the limelight, according to the Mirror.

Even while his marriage to Melissa McKnight crumbled amidst personal and professional difficulties, he still had his daughter, Marina, to think about.

“The second I laid eyes on her [when she was born], I was in love, and I had never felt that way before,” LeBlanc told the Mirror. “I couldn’t believe it. I knew from that moment there was nothing that would ever stop me from loving her – even if she crashed my Ferrari.”

This article originally appeared on People.com