March 10, 2015 6:39 PM EDT

A bullet-ridden, blood-stained religious manifesto allegedly written by accused Boston Marathon bomber Dzokhar Tsarnaev in the hours before he was captured took center stage in his terror trial Tuesday, as the public got its first intimate glimpse inside his last hiding spot.

The writings — scrawled in pencil inside a boat parked behind a Watertown, Massachusetts home — seem to reflect a young man trying to articulate to the rest of the world some motivation behind the attacks, and coming to terms with the loss of his brother, who’d recently died in a shootout with police.

“I do not mourn…

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