--- title: If I Stay Author Gayle Forman on Dark Themes in Young Adult Books description: It's time to stop worrying that great YA novels about risky behavior or even death will be a bad influence on kids canonical: https://time.com/3697845/if-i-stay-gayle-forman-young-adult-i-was-here/ author: Gayle Forman article:opinion: true article:content_tier: free article:published_time: 2015-02-06T14:44:52.000Z article:modified_time: 2026-08-04T07:38:16.696Z article:section: Ideas og:title: The Author of If I Stay on Why Kids Crave Young Adult Books With Dark Themes og:description: It's time to stop worrying that great YA novels about risky behavior or even death will be a bad influence on kids og:url: https://time.com/3697845/if-i-stay-gayle-forman-young-adult-i-was-here/ og:site_name: TIME og:image: https://static.time.com/v3/assets/bltea6093859af6183b/blt2597611d37d4d6cc/69877dd73c163937664519db/gayle-forman-author-photo-credit-dennis-kleiman-2014.jpg?branch=production&width=1200&quality=75&auto=webp&crop=16:9 og:image:width: 3900 og:image:height: 2194 og:image:alt: Gayle Forman og:type: article twitter:card: summary_large_image twitter:title: The Author of If I Stay on Why Kids Crave Young Adult Books With Dark Themes twitter:description: It's time to stop worrying that great YA novels about risky behavior or even death will be a bad influence on kids twitter:image: https://static.time.com/v3/assets/bltea6093859af6183b/blt2597611d37d4d6cc/69877dd73c163937664519db/gayle-forman-author-photo-credit-dennis-kleiman-2014.jpg?branch=production&width=1200&quality=75&auto=webp&crop=16:9 ---  # Teens Crave Young Adult Books on Really Dark Topics (and That's OK) > Sponsored content. 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Top 5 Domestic Grossing Young Adult Novel Film Adaptations_ by [Gayle Forman](https://time.com/author/gayle-forman/) ## Gayle Forman Feb 6, 2015 2:44 PM UTC  Gayle Forman Gayle Forman Dennis Kleiman—© Stomping Ground Photo 2014 by [Gayle Forman](https://time.com/author/gayle-forman/) ## Gayle Forman Feb 6, 2015 2:44 PM UTC When I was 12 years old, I became an avid reader, my bookshelves stuffed with paperbacks like Jackie Collins’ _Hollywood Wives_, Sidney Sheldon’s _The Other Side of Midnight_ and Harold Robbins’ _Dreams Die First_. Much as I loved reading about groupies and spies and Hollywood wives, and drug addicts and murderers, I was not one of them. I hadn’t even French kissed. Though some of the girls at my school were already sexually experienced, in spite of my racy reading, I was not. I wasn’t much into boys, at least not ones who existed off the page of a juicy book. I think about teen-reader me a lot when I hear about adults bemoaning the dark material in Young Adult books. (Interestingly, I rarely meet these folks; only read _about_ them.) Because the concerns seem partially predicated on this idea that you become what you read. By that logic, I would’ve become a cocaine-snorting groupie years ago, or a lunatic or a murderous Russian. Because by 10th grade, it was Vonnegut and Dostoyevsky I was obsessed with. Partly because by this time, I’d become a wee bit pretentious. But partly because the kinds of books I would’ve loved to read weren’t being written yet. The other concern with dark YA seems based on a worry that these intense stories—which sometimes deal with issues like self-harm and addiction and abuse and even death—could irrevocably damage fragile minds. Huh. I’m never all that sure what makes a book “dark” in the first place. It seems to vary with seasons, or the trends. Are dark books the ones that allegorically explore serious subject matter, like warfare (_The Hunger Games_) or the human capacity for destruction (_Grasshopper Jungle_)? Or at they the ones that reflect our actual world, including the capacity for human cruelty and kindness (_The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian_) or the messy stuff of human mortality (_The Fault In Our Stars_)? Because if those books are dark, and that’s a problem, I’m confused. Are these not the same subjects young people are encouraged to engage in at school, by reading the newspaper, or canonical texts like _The Iliad_ (warfare) or _Macbeth_ (the capacity for self destruction) or _To Kill A Mockingbird_ (kindness and cruelty) or _A Farwell to Arms_, all Emily Dickinson poetry (that messy morality business)? But for a moment, let’s put the question of whether books are dark aside. For a moment, let’s just say that some YA is dark. And….so what? Literature swims in the murkier waters of the human condition. Conflict and matters of life and death, of freedom and oppression—it is the business of books to explore these themes, and the business of teenagers, too. New brain mapping research suggests that adolescence is a time when teens are capable of engaging deeply with material, on both an intellectual level as well as an emotional one. Some research suggests that during adolescence, the parts of the brain that processes emotion are even more online with teens than with adults, (something that will come as absolutely no surprise to any parent of a teenager). So, developmentally, teens are hungry for more provocative grist while emotionally they’re thirsty for the catharsis these books offer. Of course teens are drawn to darker, meatier fare. The only surprise about this is that it’s a surprise. There may be another reason for the appeal. Adolescence is a time when teens are statistically more likely to come into harm’s way, and thus more likely to witness harm among their peers. According to the [National Institutes for Mental Health](http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/the-teen-brain-still-under-construction/index.shtml#pub1), teens between 15 and 19 are about six times more likely to die by injury than people ages 10 to 14\. Is it any wonder that they want books to help process what they’re experiencing around them, often for the first time? That increased death rate, however, is a chilling statistic, particularly if you’re a parent. Seen through that lens—the fear of something terrible befalling a child—the wariness about dark YA begins to make more sense. Because if your child doesn’t read about death, about abuse, about rape, about suicide, then these terrible things won’t happen to him or her.  Courtesy of Gayle Forman Courtesy of Gayle Forman But that is a form of magical thinking, and no matter how well intentioned, it’s wrong. Because books don’t create behaviors. It’s possible they reinforce existing behaviors, but those behaviors are already present, not created by a novel. A novel won’t turn a bookish drama geek into a promiscuous drug abuser any more than it will turn a promiscuous drug abuser into a bookish drama geek, unless the seeds of those transformations were already planted. What books can do, however, is reflect an experience and show a way out of difficult, isolating times. It’s why Laurie Halse Anderson’s _Speak_ has become such a touchstone, giving young women a voice to speak about sexual abuse, or Sherman Alexie’s _Part-Time Indian_ has been a life raft for young people who can’t see their way out of existences straightjacketed by addiction and deprivation. I don’t believe that books, YA or otherwise, have the power to save lives. That’s a bit too grandiose for my thinking, but seeing your experience, your sometimes difficult experiences, reflected can be a powerful incentive to reach out and get the help that could indeed save a life. I suspect that most teens who read and love “dark” YA have little in common with the struggling characters they relate to. Whenever I ask teenagers why they’re drawn to books like my novel [_If I Stay_](http://www.amazon.com/If-I-Stay-Gayle-Forman/dp/014241543X/)—in which the main character loses her family in a car accident—they overwhelmingly say the appeal is seeing an ordinary teen forced into an extraordinary circumstance. Reading about everyday fictional teens rising to the occasion (and, spoiler alert, in YA books they almost always do) allows actual teens to imagine themselves doing the same, within the lower-stakes conflicts and contexts of their own lives. This is empowering, and hopeful, words that I would use to describe many YA books. Even the dark ones. Especially the dark ones. These “dark” books may seem to be about death, about illness, about pain, but really they are about life. The kids get that, even if the adults sometimes, do not. **_Some of my favorite “dark” YA books:_** * Melina Marchetta’s [_Jellicoe Road_](http://www.amazon.com/Jellicoe-Road-Melina-Marchetta/dp/0061431850/) * Coe Booth’s [_Tyrell_](http://www.amazon.com/Tyrell-Coe-Booth/dp/0439838800) * Rainbow Rowell’s [_Eleanor & Park_](http://www.amazon.com/Eleanor-Park-Rainbow-Rowell/dp/1250012570/) * Jandy Nelson’s [_I’ll Give You The Sun_](http://www.amazon.com/Ill-Give-You-Jandy-Nelson/dp/0803734964/) * Libba Bray’s [_Going Bovine_](http://www.amazon.com/Going-Bovine-Libba-Bray/dp/0385733984/) * Blake Nelson’s [_Recovery Road_](http://www.amazon.com/Recovery-Road-Blake-Nelson/dp/0545107296/) * Carrie Mesrobian’s [_Sex & Violence_](http://www.amazon.com/Sex-Violence-Carrie-Mesrobian/dp/1467705977/) * Sarah Dessen’s [_This Lullaby_](http://www.amazon.com/This-Lullaby-Sarah-Dessen/dp/0142501557/) * Paul Griffin’s [_Stay With Me_](http://www.amazon.com/Stay-Me-Paul-Griffin/dp/0142421723/) * Lauren Oliver’s [_Before I Fall_](http://www.amazon.com/Before-I-Fall-Lauren-Oliver/dp/0061726818/) * E Lockhart’s [_We Were Liars_](http://www.amazon.com/We-Were-Liars-E-Lockhart/dp/038574126X/) * Stephen Chbosky’s [_The Perks of Being A Wallflower_](http://www.amazon.com/Perks-Being-Wallflower-Stephen-Chbosky/dp/1451696191/) * Jacqueline Woodson’s [_If You Come Softly_](http://www.amazon.com/You-Come-Softly-Jacqueline-Woodson/dp/0142415227) _(Gayle Forman’s best-selling novel_ [ _If I Stay_](http://www.amazon.com/If-I-Stay-Gayle-Forman/dp/014241543X) _was made into_ [_a motion picture in 2014_](http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1355630/)_. Her latest novel,_[ _I Was Here_](http://www.amazon.com/I-Was-Here-Gayle-Forman/dp/0451471474) _was published in January 2015\. )_ ## Transcript [00:04] [ MUSIC ] Sorry. My [00:08] bad. [ LAUGH ] I'm Augustus Waters. I've been in [00:12] remission for about a year and a half. Maybe you'd like to [00:14] share some of your fears with the group. My fears Are you [00:16] angry? So [00:20] angry. You need to break something. And I can't tell you [00:24] how thankful I am for our little infinity. To good life Hazel [00:26] Grace. Okay? Okay. Divergents threaten [00:35] the system, it won't be save until they are [00:39] removed. [ MUSIC ] We have to fight back. [ UNKNOWN ] [00:43] claimed you're all dangerous insurgents. If we were to [00:46] combine forces. We'd be unstoppable. [ MUSIC ] Say [00:50] it out loud. Say it Vampire. [00:54] Are you afraid? No. This isn't real. [01:06] This kind of stuff just doesn't exist. It does in my world. [01:10] After 18 years of being utterly ordinary, I finally felt I could [01:15] shine. I was born to be a vampire. You're so beautiful. [01:17] We're the same temperature now. [01:26] Your a wizard Harry. I'm a what? Fought valiantly. But you [01:27] have allowed your friends to die for you, rather than face [01:27] me [ UNKNOWN ] [ SCREAM ] [ MUSIC ] Come on. We [01:27] can end this. [ MUSIC ] Different. I can see it. [01:33] What can you see? Here, you're dealing with all [01:33] experienced killer Any last advice? Stay alive. 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